saying g'bye always makes me sad. letting go of something --- smacking yr butt: you don't like it: no. you say it's not fun. mebbe during sex… mostly i wanna smack your ass as a punishment or as a gesture of joie de vivre. you say no. not fun for you.
[slice of life, indicating something worth interjecting here]
at the Londromat (with a line over the second 'o') lotsa cute chicanas doing laundry. children. a guy, bored/not bored waiting: nice eyes. i don't feel well, i went into bed and hid a while. (the guy w/ nice eyes is smooshing a little girl, laughing and struggling --- he's smacking her thighs --- it's kinda eroticized. They are having fun.)
(they go by now)
Uncle Matty once askt the Magic 8 Ball™ if he wd ever have super powers. i don't remember the answer - "Better not tell you now"? They don't want to return to Earth until they can have POWER.
you say that if i'm not happy w/ Tarin the way she is, i shd just find another girlfren. i hate it when you* say that asides from the difficulties finding a friend and lover, asides from i want you asides from feeling like you are the one who was sent to me… when you say that i feel like all the burden of changing is on me, that Tarin does not change for my sake. none of it is worth fighting over, struggling to remember to be nice to tarin, she doesn't like it. i keep having to surrender, i want…
you askt if when i was w/ all my lovers if i was trying to not be touched.
mebbe.
i sed i was empty, how afraid i am. sometimes i feel as if my life is over.
*you - sorta like They
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